Last week, I was reminded quite forcefully how horrible my JSL is. Hearing non-signers often seem so impressed with my signing, but if they only knew how much I struggle to catch what’s happening around me in a fluent conversation, and how much I miss. And it’s a lot, believe me. It feels like I miss most of a conversation.
But now, the question is, what should I do with the pain of that realisation? I think I know the answer. But that doesn’t make it easy, I must tell you.
The good news? I learnt a lot of signs. I’m going to try to be happy with the fact that I know more JSL, Hebrew, and Japanese than the average Jamaican person, especially considering I’ve never been immersed in any of those cultures.
Happy, but not satisfied to stay where I am. Never.